Softening into life and the unraveling of self protection

I’m the first to admit, I love the aesthetics around the ideal of a softened life. I love nature, and free roaming animals and washing hanging gently in a meadowed backyard. I love bare feet on grass, watercolour paints and candlelit tables. I love floaty, flowy, unrushed and earthy.

Yet I also know that no matter the external manifestations (aka what something looks like on the outside), it is the internal element of softening that captures my heart the most.

I see living a softened life as less about what it looks like, and more about what it feels like. It is about resting in the naturalness of Life. It’s unraveling the hardened edges and self-protection we’ve been taught are the only ways to cope with life. It’s restoring a pace that is natural to us, instead of frantically trying to keep up with artificial expectations.

And yes, this can look like slow days and nature and barefoot walks, but it can also look like a deeper spiritual dignity that is carried within the rush of life. A dignity that rests beneath whatever it is you are doing, and softly infuses life with an gentle sense of ‘I am where I am meant to be. There is no rush. It is safe to be me.’

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Something that I remember doing when I was a teacher, was waking up a bit earlier, and instead of going straight to work, stopping off at the cafe by work and getting my coffee to sit in. There, I would read, write and sip my coffee.

As I sat there, lots of people from work would come in and order their take-away coffees, as they rushed to get to school. And if you’ve been a teacher, you know that there is always something that you could be rushing to do. I definitely could have ordered my take-away coffee and headed to work to get through more before the students arrived. And I did definitely get pangs of ‘do people think I’m really lazy because I’m just sitting here and not rushing off to work?’ when I would see other teachers from school come in.

Yet actively taking this time, prioritising this unhurried morning ritual, felt very important.

Because the thing is, we could always be doing more. And our collective systems are designed to reward those who play into this idea of being busy and rushed as badge of honour.

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A big part of a softened life, is becoming open to being okay with people judging you. To be okay with people thinking that you are not doing enough. For people thinking ‘How dare you not work as hard as me. How dare you not strive and push and perform.’

What I have found, is that the hardness we are taught to carry, is very often formed via the ways we are taught to perform for love, approval and acceptance. We create ways of being that are designed to protect us from judgement. From rejection. From the feelings that come with feeling not approved of. From the feeling of not being viewed as enough.

If we just do more, produce more, present ourselves in a certain way, we can avoid these feelings. Yet this very often comes at the expense of being our natural selves. And with this, comes a feeling of abandonment. Of artificiality. Of a vital texture of life being lost in the rush to prove, strive and become.

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Often, softness is equated with passivity. But it is actually a very active process. It is a process of reclaiming our naturalness, and gently untangling the shields that we have been taught to carry.

It is a process of letting go of our defences, feeling what is there and allowing ourselves to rest in the naturalness of who we are.

This is the essence of what I explore through feminine healing. A restoration of the softness of your feminine essence, gifts and heart.

This is also a big part of what I support women with through Feminine Business. Because this tendency to self-protect arises deeply when we are in business. And the more softened we are, the deeper our perceptiveness and sensitivity becomes- which can bring up a lot when we are trying to share ourselves and our business with the world.

This process of softening, in life, in relationship, in business, is the nucleus of the feminine. It is so counterintuitive to what we are taught to strive for in our world, that it can elicit a lot of self-doubt and fear.

Yet I continually find, that the peace and fulfilment we crave as women, is not found in the external striving, but instead in this reconnection with the heart. In this letting go of the hardened edges of self-protection. In the softening into our inherent nature, where striving and rushing to prove oneself is no longer the goal. Where the tenderness of our deeper feminine being is the fuel that restores us back into purpose, peace and true connection.

Belinda x